im a horrible horrible sleeper .
or maybe just a horrible girl .
woke up ad 5.30PM this afternoon .
YES!!
its 5.30PM .
shits .
i almost got a heart attack when i saw de clock .
no wonder my dream was very long .
me n my girlfriends in a gondola .
probably in Europe .
but de person rowing the boat was a pakcik .
i donno lar .
den step out of the boat, we're in malaysia .
haix .
de result of too much CHARMED .
dreams sometimes reflects who u are : CRAZY .

n worst of all, im a horrible sleeper .
i woke up n my sleeve is WET !
yes .
wet !
conclusion : i DROOL .
tats BUROK ok .
but wadever .
n i still haf de guts to publicise it in my blog .
so there's de real me .
a sleep-like-a-drooling-pig-n-waking-up-late girl .



guys, guys out there .
when a girl doesnt haf interest in u, just leave the girl alone .







huhu .
two posts in one day .
how rare .
tats because PRELIMS OVER .
n i have PLENTY of time !
however, not the time to relax .
behold, the almighty O LEVELS .
the one that can change our lives .
it determines whether we become a LAWYER or a CONSTRUCTION WORKER .
a BUSINESSMAN or a CLEANER .
but i want to be none .
i want to be a housewife !
just sit at home or do nothing .
or maybe, i shd become like my mom .
a housewife-football-coach that kick butts !
forget about it .
well, i actually have no ambition .
no goals in life .
then, what the hell am i studying for .

all i noe right now is that im addicted to CHARMED .
hit the tv n the books .
so far i've read 5 CHARMED books .
the more i read, the more i want supernatural powers .
imagine, having a power that freezes time .
that way, i can just freeze the examination hall n copy some smart guy's answer n pass my O levels with flying colours .
or a premonition .
that way i can see the past n the future .
i will buy 4D n get effing RICH .
or a whitelighter .
orb here n there w/o any mode of transport .
that way i can travel around the world .
but being normal is still the best !

now, love is seen as SUNSHINE WITH SCATTERED RAINS .
lovely yet painful .
to all my attached girlfriends, play your cards right n dont be deceived .
all the best to all of you .
as for me, whatever happens, happens .
i don't really care that much .



i don't need to find love, love will come and find me .
how emo ~







listen ppl .
part of the lyrics fer de POWER RANGER song is 'here comes the power ranger' n not 'PICK UP the power ranger' .
mira mira .
makin hari makin belo kawan aku ni !

amaths paper 2 was definitely easier than paper 1 .
i donno y .
but its do-able !!

backmasking of names is FUN !!
it's funny how they turn out .
what your backmasked name is, is what u are gonna be in the next lifetime !!
(fyi, it's fiction . just to have fun)
for example .

PUTRI --- IRTUP (keleng!! wahahaha! kawan aku keleng !!)
AMIRA --- ARIMA (mix blood . melayu + indian . macam sri lankan pon ader)
MAHMUDAH --- HADUMHAM (mcm makanan jer .)
SYEERA --- AREEYS (chey . namer mat saleh .)
ATIKA --- AKITA (namer jepun . cool .)
DIYANA --- ANAYID (namer arab .)
AZWINDA --- ADNIWZA (unknown . mungkin tkder next lifetime . maner tau jadi monyet ker)
HASANAH --- HANASAH (namer tk fun .)
AMINAH(nenek ku) --- HANIMA (tetap obit)
HALIMAH(nenek ku) --- HAMILAH (asal namer nenek2 obit ni)
HAYATIE --- EITAYAH (african!)
SANDRA --- ARDNAS (entahh lar)
RAMESH --- HSEMAR (myanmar !)
NAIM --- MIAN (cina!! ah mian!!)

woohoo .
this is fun !



akita seyy .







wooooooo .
so far 5 days of fasting fulfilled !!
but some effects fasting had on me was disastrous .
stomach pain tat made me wish i wasnt born .
kae tats exaggerating .
my stomach just cannot adapt to my new diet .
from a eat-all-you-can stomach to cant-eat-when-the-sun-is-out stomach .
i understand u stomach .
25 more days to go .

today's science paper 1 was so-so .
felt extremely tired today tat i only took 30 mins to do de paper n another 30 mins to sleep .
i slept enough ytd (at last!) .
but somehow i felt very tired .
paper ends ad 9.15am .
went back home with mahmudah in the rain .
how romantic .
haha .
reach home, cleaned myself up n den ZzzzZZzZZz .
omg, im slowly evolving to a pig .
come to think of it, whr got muslim pig .
haha!!

went to de library ad 1 n met rahman there .
practised my amaths .
somehow, i 'accidentally' did sec 3 emaths .
lesson learn today .
DE LIBRARY CAN BE A NON-CONDUSIVE ENVIRONMENT !!
a bunch of primary school kids on my left n a bunch of farting geeks from river valley on my right .
de kids were talking among themselves so loudly .
tried to tolerate but my patience had it's limits (chey chey) .
so i SSSHHHHH-ED them loudly (lar.. stakat tu jer).
if they want to organise some class chalet, there is no need to announce it to de whole world . (kids ....)
on the other hand, young adults have manner problems .
now i noe tat students from good schools like RV farts in public LOUDLY .
twice to be exact .
n they can laugh instead of saying 'excuse me' or feel at least a bit embarassed .



a day where a RV student release big fat molecules of methane ... TWICE .







well well .
i slept more than 3HOURS in the morning .
from 1am to 5am .
that's 4HOURS .
im so happy . ((=

add maths paper was kuku .
lit paper was kuku too .
so, tats about it : KUKU .

1hr12mins more to go for my LUNCH+DINNER aka buker puase .
yum yumm .

here are some pictures i've just editted .
enjoy !










ok so .
prelims have transformed me into a zombie .
yes .
an ugly one .
with those big eyebags n pale face .
slept fer 3 hrs on monday .
sleeping time : 12+ PAGI til 3 PAGI .
those big font fer PAGI is to prevent (tu) guys to think tat it is PETANG instead .
haha .

forced myself to wake up ad 3am just to study fer physics .
study til 7am den off to school .
den blablabla .
TODAY !!
sleeping time : 12+ PAGI til 3 PAGI .
studied fer geography .
this time, it felt like hell ! (although i dont know what hell feels like)
i went to school ad 2 to sit fer the paper .
along the way, my skewlmates look at me like i was a ghost .

den i went to the hall n sat my desk although it was 30 mins before de paper started n there was only 5 or 6 ppl in de hall .
so i just stared ad the stage n waited for de paper to begin .
after watching 'little man' den i feel more human n less zombie .

today, i have to study LITERATURE n practice AMATHS .
haix .
guess i'll be sleeping for 3 hrs again .
or maybe no sleep at all .
knnccb !
did all this to secure good marks .
i hope its all worth it n wont go to waste .



note to self : drink more coffee ZOMBIE .







ok so .
i woke up ad 2+pm just now .
i woke up because my sis woke me up .
if she did not wake me up, i think i would be sleeping til tmr .

so ytd..
ytd ytd ytd was effing fun .
it was supposed to be 'couple's night out' but i was w/o a partner .
kene buihh .
bodoh nyer fariq .
but it was fun .

we went to bugis junction n walked walked .
den proceed to Suria's Raya Carnival .
search for deng deng but no deng deng was found, only otak-otak . ))=
den got fireworks !!




then, around 10pm, shaq, wan, rus n afiqah wanted to leave .
so they left .
me, mira n khai went to starbucks .
i drank iced cocoa !!
my favourite .
yumm!
talked talked talked .
then, we left ad 11pm .
i read 'charmed' on the way home n i've finally completed the whole book !! ((=
reached home ard 12 den bath den slept !!

here are the pictures .








hello there .
tired .
tired .
dozed off at 1+ am just now .
i set 3 alarm ad 4.50am, 4.55am n 4.57am because im a heavy sleeper .
planned to revise .
n guess wad .
i didnt wake up .
even if a bomb was dropped, i guess i would still be sleeping like a pig .

today had lit paper 1 .
unseen text n 'the english teacher' .
didnt prepared enough .
quite easy though .
wrote around 2.5 pages of essay fer the first qn .
n 2 pages fer the next .
tat means an hour and a half of non-stop writing .
my hand was already flagging a white flag(not literally) as im sure my lit paper tire de crap out of my hand .

lit paper 1 ends ad 9.30am .
went back home .
den came back to school around 11am .
practised my maths .
den sat fer mathematics paper 2 ad 2pm .
it was a 2 n a half hour paper .
seems like a very long period of time but it wasnt enough .
i calculated n i managed to lose 10 marks fer tat paper .
the paper was hard n challenging .
i like !

so, after the paper, everyone shared how much marks they lost .
mahmudah lost 14 marks .
caroline lost 24 marks .
hmm .
tat makes losing 10 marks not so bad .
wahaha .
but i desperately haf to get an A1 fer maths bebeh .

argh .
tmr english paper 2 n CHEMISTRY .
gosh .
i definitely haf to get an A1 fer my sciences .
i'll burn the midnight oil tonight if i haf to .
kae good luck to pink ranger !







haix .
today very kuku .
im tired .
so tired .
when is all this going to end .
it's just prelims n im breaking down .
not enough power to boost my engine .
tat's y i put on the 'Power Rangers Mystic Force' song .
SPONGEBOB-ED .
wad can i say .

well, maths paper was fine .
maths is my best friend .
so nth can go wrong except for careless mistakes .
ends ad 10 .
den from there studied til 3 .
coz mira had POA exams from 2-3 .
while mira was studying for POA, i was listening.
n amazingly, for a person who does not study POA in her life AT ALL, i remembered some formulas .
Capital = Assets - Liabilities
LOR - Liabilities Owner's equity Revenue
AED - Assets Expenses Drawings

wahaha .
how cool .
den mi n mira proceed to de library n practised our maths .
my brain was drained out, no more brain juice to squeeze .
den mira saw zinger box ad the library n she began to feel hungry .
so we head to kfc ad jp .
instead of buying zinger meal that she was craving for, she bought bandito .

den walked around jp .
came back home n fell asleep .
i did not noe how i fell asleep .
i was on my way to the computer den suddenly on the way to the computer, i fell asleep on my bed n dozed off .
the weirdity(got such word meh?) of sleeping like THAT clearly shows how TIRED i was .
maybe because i woke up ad 4.50am to do a brief revision on my maths .
at least i didnt go to pioneer mall mcd . ((=




go PINK ranger !!







practical was easy lar .
just follow instructions and POOF, done !
only that i cannot score well .
either because i dont read instructions well or i miss instructions .
so well, physics was about lens .
chem, was about.. chemicals . ((=

so quarantined til 11.45am .
den went back home, did my mom's email .
den went back to school n blajar .
blajar til 5+ ,
huhu .
tmr maths paper 1 .
woooooooooo~
my fav subject .
kae balls, gd luck fer ur exams .







this post is dedicated to mahmudah .
a reply from her entry on a couple drifting apart .
tis will be an especially EMO entry kae .
so ppl, i've warned you .

firstly, my definition of a healthy relationship .
it is not defined by the length of time a couple are together but the understanding n connection they both have .
like u mentioned, it was a fantasy til one year later, it changed .
love was powerful that it can withstand any problems right ?
so, what happened ?
why cant it withstand this ?

there are alot of causes for this to happen .
but in this case, Qian Er let it be n did nth about it .
yes, it's ok fer the guy to have alot of friends .
but if the girl insists on not sharing her problems with her friends or refused to keep in touch with her friends, we can't say its not her fault .
this is one good example to show YOU PPL that a girl's love is much deeper than a guy's that it makes de girl's sweetheart everything to her .
so, back to the story .

drifting or merely just sensitive ?
that is something the girl shd think about thoroughly .
if it's really drifting, then de couple shd sit down together n talk about it .
ignoring will not help, it will just worsen the situation .
so, here i am blabbering but for a gd cause .
every obstacles have a solution .
giving up is not always an option .
in fact, it is never an option .

i did a research, how semang-gat .
this website may more or less help . click here ((=
i hope this will put a happy ending to ur story .







kae .
i didnt go out this week !!!
omg omg omg .
im going crazy .
studying have brought me to a whole new level .
i cant stop studying now .
i think im going crazy .
lucky for me, i still have de desire to go online .
part of me wants O level to come faster so that it will end faster thus the stress ends sooner .
another wants O level to come later so that i'll haf more time to prepare.

nowadays, im addicted to senses fail songs .
firstly, because of their BOMBAST vocabs .
secondly, because of their lyrics .
no, im not going to be another diniy who went to write a long entry about senses fail .
too bad, JOEKIM went to embarass himself by wearing senses fail's shirt singing RNB !!
wtf !
haha .
doesnt matter anymore because he's out of the competition !
how cool .
aniway, we dont need any kindergarten entertainer in de competition .
that's what i call him .
a kindergarten entertainer because he sings like one .

enough .
i want to give a BIG shout-out to hady mirza's fans out there .
VOTE 10 times more than u usually vote because jasmine's fans are going to vote fer jonathan .
they dont want this season to turn out like the last where a malay singer was throned .
so, moral of the story, VOTE more .
even if hady wins , im so sure the makciks n pakciks in geylang are the ones whu voted .

huhu .
i feel like shit .
n shit feels like me .
lol .




<3>

`i am me, not someone else

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

♥ 7:43 PM

what do u do when u're boring ?
(a) u kill urself
(b) faint
(c) overdose yourself with cough syrup

i'll say all of the above .
sounds cool .
but no, im not going to do it .
hahaha!

wishlist*
- spongebob's boxer
- patrick's boxer
- the simpson's boxer
- felix the cat's boxer
- n most importantly GARFIELD'S
- not forgetting nenek cool

fav number : 26 !!






read it all ?
well, none of them is true .

`i am me, not someone else

Monday, September 11, 2006

♥ 10:13 PM

msn has been getting on my nerves, still .
i cant log in n dat frustrated me, like, ALOT !!
asshole .
de webmaster of MSN whu is responsible for this can go suck cock and die .
what if someone needed to use MSN fer important purposes like....
- chatting with an important business client or
- asking a friend for tomorrow's schedule (if he/she have no more means of communication) or
- in de middle of a very long transfer of files n then MSN snaps it off or
- a dying person saying his/her last words to his/her family members overseas thru webcam
then how??!!!!
u tell me !!!

kae enough of it .
i just hope u bloody morons work it out SOON .
i mean, wad kind of service u giving .

so, here i am venting my anger here like a freak .
1st day of school rox balls (yea.. like real) .
school ends ad 1.20pm .
so, me&mygirlfriends went to jp .
sinyi bought make-up set brushes .
how lame .
haha, but still cute lar .
so asked both mira n sinyi to study but one wanted to sleep n the other... i dont know .
so i went to PM n study with mahmudah n jing heng .
mahmudah n jing heng left me alone ad 4 .
))'= how sad .
i didnt wanna go home bcos i cant study ad home .
to prove it, here i am lazing my butt infront of the computer when actually i shd be studying .
so i left PM around 5+ lar .
studying alone wasnt tat bad .
used to it .
blablabla n bla .


feeling... uncool about everything(tat includes u MSN)

`i am me, not someone else

Saturday, September 09, 2006

♥ 5:23 PM

ok saturday sux .
friday sux .
thursday doesnt sux .
u wanna noe wad happen ??
only de combination 10-01 can express how i feel .
lol .
tats de score of pool played .
of course TEN was mine .
n de pathetic but glorious ONE belonged to pala kemong .
wahaha .

kae the end .

STUDY HARD PPL !!!

`i am me, not someone else

♥ 4:55 PM

`i am me, not someone else

Friday, September 01, 2006

♥ 11:10 PM

31.o8.o6 was teachers' day celebration . I laughed my ass out when i watched the teachers performed . I laughed to tears to be exact . Went back home then headed for Xingnan, my pathetic primary school . They(the security guards) wouldn't let us in because we are wearing home clothes . wtf . So me, mahmudah n jing heng waited like rocks . Finally, we got in . My purpose of going there was mainly because I missed the food and also because I find myself so much taller . haha !!

Plan to meet Samsui GF n frens at PM at 1.30 but mahmudah have to do her prayers . So, while she went home, jing heng made for me a bear n an elmo out of a balloon . Unfortunately, the bear lost an arm . We reached PM at 2.00 . wad horrible ppl we were to be late . Waited for the pool table for like hours or so . In the meantime, Jing Heng n Mahmudah played bowling . -_- .
Played pool at last and the best moment was the victory !! I beated Samsui GF . huhu . ((= played only for one game . I wanted more but I had to go . ))=

Me, Mira and Putri then met Alif at City Hall . For once, he was NOT LATE . Then we headed for East Coast Park . The chalet was a 2-storey one and we waited for Putri's sis outside the chalet for like an hour plus . Then tudututu . Stayed up the whole night except fer 15 minutes of bad snoring from me(according to mira) . They even recorded my snores . wtf ! Tell u guys something . It was thursday night or wad we Muslims call it "Malam Jumaat" and the four of us was walking in the wee hours of the night . We saw a Muslim lady wearing a "telekong" praying under a tree . At first we thought it was a pontianak or wad . I got goosebumbs n i almost had a heart-attack . It's so fucking scary okay !

We went to a hawker centre . There was de Haron's stall, Hassan's stall, Kak long's stall n not forgetting Ahmad's stalls . whahahaha! tk paham tkper . eat, eat, eat then had to go to the toilet and then i got a second almost-heart-attack . At the entrance of the female's toilet, there's this auntie just sitting there looking . Scary siol . Then we sent Alif at the underpass and went back to chalet .

Next fine day, I GOT A BELATED BIRTHDAY BASH . A belated birthday bash three weeks after my bdae . I was nicely dressed n my friends threw flour and sweet drinks ad me(not forgetting Putri's giant-sized bedak) . So i bathed again . Lucky for me I brought an extra shirt and too bad for me I did not bring any extra bottom . So, I went back home with a flour-ed jeans embarassing myself in the mrt from bedok all the way to boon lay . Yeaa. Thx alot guys .

`i am me, not someone else

this is me.



Atika
18 years of age
13th August 1990
Singapore Polytechnic
Diploma in Financial Informatics
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