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Monday, July 31, 2006
♥ 2:51 PM


monday .
school was okae .
went to I.J on saturdayy .
Sunday, spent de whole day to complete my literature essay -CA2 .
wrote 2 full pages w/o leaving a line .
was half-completed then .
set alarm to wake up ad 4am tis morning n i'd completed another 2 full pages .
so total pages = 4 = HELL .

things to do today .
1. go to school
2. play pool
3. complete relative velocities exercise
4. complete literature essay on twelfth night
5. revise chemistry [optional]

my life's a bore .
i love myself no longer .
i love JOHNNY DEPP . [sry azura, he's mine . huahuahua .]
LOL .


`i am me, not someone else




Friday, July 28, 2006
♥ 7:25 PM


tudututu .
lalala .
lalalalala .
wawawa .
ok dah .
take care siol .


`i am me, not someone else




Saturday, July 22, 2006
♥ 11:50 PM


huhu .
went to westwood carnival ad 11 wiith mahmudah & jing hengg .
pretty cool carnival but fuckiing expensive .
daylight robbery .
saw mr rameshh .
haha .
so took pics with some of de mascots .
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horse . iim born in de year of kuda .
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sesat nyer kumbangg . mcm paham .
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donald duckk ~!
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((=
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toilet westwood creatiive benar .

den meet farhan ad boon lay int ad 1.30pm .
haha .
came all de way from yishun .
how sweet is tat .
gave me a rose .

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loves it . ((=

tank u .
den took a bus to town .
went to far east .
watchedd de bands along de streets .
tapestry .
buat keje amal dgn band yg perform dgn sukarela untok raise-kan duit untok org yg kurang bernasib baik .
now u noe my malay sux .
u donate, u get sticker or balloon .
LOL .

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tapestry
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bassist .
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saper tu amek gbr .
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haha . concentrate benar .
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vox .
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drummer .

spend hours there .
waited fer miira & alif mcm tgu buah tk jatoh2 .
janji kol 4 tapii sampai kol 4.45 .
jiwer lar konon .
den makan .
den walk n walk .
watchh more bands .
blablabla .
ran into an old friend .
haha .
den went to esplanade .
den blablabla .
. END .


`i am me, not someone else




Thursday, July 20, 2006
♥ 8:50 PM


yeaa .
iim loving my liife to de core .
but ii donno wad telah happen to my studiies .
ytd .
was too stresses up in school .
so went to toilet n smoked .
serious siia .
everyday after skewl got remedials .
end so late .
haiiz .
just now .
pretended to be siick .
went to sick bay .
slept in sick bay fer 2hrs .
den my sis fetch me n ii escaped from lessons n remedials .
tats fucking irritating .
O levels is so near .
so went home n slept like a pig .
just now ii tore up my jeans .
den asked my sis's bf help .
he's doing it fer mi .
haha .
tanks !!
now, my sis n her bf n her fren is preparing de shisha or wadever u call it .
mom bought it from arab n my sis have de tabacco !
woohoo .
cant wait to smoke .
ii've turned bad .
really bad .
shit me .
shit u .
shit them .


`i am me, not someone else




Monday, July 17, 2006
♥ 10:30 PM


wawawa .
sunday was fun .
oh no .
GREAT .
haha .
so long since ii had tat muchh fun .
so ... baybeats on sunday .
electrico .
blablabla .
pic can go miira's blogg .
weeeeeeeeeeee ..................


`i am me, not someone else




Sunday, July 16, 2006
♥ 2:27 PM


yeaa .
so ii went to baybeats ytd .

blablabla .
enjoy de pics .













`i am me, not someone else




♥ 1:34 PM


walalalalalalala .
fucken fucken so fucken up .
cbcbcbcbcbcbcb .
babi babi babi pig pig pig .
oinkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk .
hahahahahahhahahaha .
nabey nabey nabey .
cbccbcbcbcbcb .
NABEY TING TONG BELL .



ok done .


`i am me, not someone else




Friday, July 14, 2006
♥ 10:31 PM


firstly, I want to start this entry by wishing clara a happy birthday .
shit her .
she's 16 alreadyy .
haha .

nothing much happened today .
SEL lesson was about relationships & intimacy & marriage .
mrs rameshh says alot of stuffs about them tat affects me .
haiix .
wad de hell .

these few days ii have been day-dreaming .
wasn't aware tt mahmudah was talking to me .
day-dream on de way to school .
day-dream on de way back home .
ii hope ii don't get hit by a truck just because ii day-dream .
i dont know why .
i feel this vague dissatisfaction .
a sense of being so incomplete .
i feel tat im turning into this character from my literature text whose life is "dull & mundane" .
that was de start of de story .
but in the end he was a happy & complete man of course .
i hope my ending will be the same .

find it hard to study .
i dont know why either .
been playing online pool like a jackass who doesnt care about O levels .
i do care, though .
three of my friends asked me out tmr but ii told them i dont want to .
hey, ii dont know why either .
enough about me .

let's talk about ...................... marriage .
haha .
mrs ramesh told us we have to learn about marriage so tat we can be prepared .
she compares marriage to a deep pool or whatsoever .
but whu cares .
she asked the whole class "why do ppl get married?" .
some said love .
others said breakthrough from parents . [ oh, it was me ]
so we asked her back because obviously she was married .
& she said the sweetest thingg a married women can say ;
"firstly, love & secondly, it's about accepting each other's weaknesses" .
how sweet is tat .
of course some of the guys said "sex" . [ screw them ]
den on one of the pages of my CME book, we are required to write a marriage vows .
argh .
stoopid vows .
"I will (blablablabla) in health or in sickness (blablablabla) rich or poor ."
these vows are the reasons why we girls despise sweet nothings . [ seriously ]
do you think tat when a guy says he loves u, he actually means it ?
n when he says u are someone tat is so precious to him, he actually means it ?
he does... not . [ no offence to anyone though; ii speak my mind ]
they knew it was any girl's weakness to believe all those sweet nothings .
well, we girls sure are dumb .
what makes us more dumb is tat we accept their apology .


`i am me, not someone else




Wednesday, July 12, 2006
♥ 7:05 PM


hey dudes & dudettes .
seems lyk ii am beginning to blog often .
tats how its like .
too free .
free like a bird, only tt this bird stays in de same nest as its parents . [gosh]
when it comes to O levels, seems lyk ii have no tyme .
after englishh remedials, went to jp withh sinyi & miira .
miira went to take her shoe .
I bought a necklace from perlini's for clara's birthday .
sinyi went to collect her altered jeans .
then taught my friends maths in de library .
joke joke joke .
laugh laugh laugh .
den became hungry hungry hungry .
so we went to eat eat eat .
eat ad kfc .
alot of minahs working on de cashier so sinyi saiid "ii think it's minahs-shift" .
she talked to us like talking to de whole world .
bla bla bla .
went home .
oh yeaa .
read this text ii extracted out of my literature text "the english teacher" .
so meaningful .
tats one of de reason ii love literature .
XD

"There is no escape from loneliness & separation .
Mom, dad, sisters, friends, loved ones ;
we come together only to go apart again .
They move away from us as we move away from them .
The law of life cannot be avoided .
The law comes into operation the moment we detach ourselves from our mother's womb .
All struggle & misery in life is due to our attempt to arrest this law or get away from it or in allowing ourselves to be hurt by it .
The fact must be recognised .
A profound unmitigated loneliness is the only truth of life .
All else is false ."


`i am me, not someone else




Tuesday, July 11, 2006
♥ 8:17 PM


for those who are worried, dun worry .
haha .
thx fer de concern thoughh .
todayy was a long dayy .
weather was friendlyy .
didnt feel like waking up just now .
slept like a pig de whole day ytd .
woke up ad 10pm .
den watched tv till 1am i guess .
but who cares .
had 2hrs of chem remedial just now .
as soon as it was tiime to go home, it was raining heavily .
so decided to stay in class to do some questions til de rain stopped .

prrrrrrrrrr .........
playing online pool right now ad this very instant .
haha .
haiiz .
aniway ii was myself today .
no more melancholic me . [ only one day ]
though ii looked so cheerful outside, u never know how weak ii can be inside .
inside, it is so very fragile and a new relationship is de last thing ii want right now .
iim scared .
realli scared .


`i am me, not someone else




Sunday, July 09, 2006
♥ 2:55 PM


im backk .
worst day of my life : 080706
yesterday was our three monthhs n our final monthh too .
yeaa .
how come we were so fine and end up like this .
it's god's will .
thought things would go smoothly but it ended up smoothly .
so here I am .
trying hard to move on .
it's harder than I thought it would be .
but I will do my very best for wad's best for me . =D

In life, pain n struggles is somethingg u can never run away from
it's only a matter of time when u have to face it .
And when it comes, dare to face it n not run away from it .
Just take it as a lesson n hey u gained more experience ...
An unpleasant experiience .
Remember what i said about you .
"You are a mistake I will nv regret" .
I nv will .
Nice having you in my life even if it was fer a short while .
Maybe it's a curse of three-months .
Thanks for making me a stronger person ; emotionally&mentally .
Remember u said "we can still go out as friends"
Well, tat's the last thing I would want because I cannot love a friend .
For now, time will heal my sorrows .
Don't worry, I'll be fine soon .
Farewell my lovely mistake .
Slowly, I'll learn how to smile .


`i am me, not someone else




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