Friday, July 14, 2006
♥ 10:31 PM
firstly, I want to start this entry by wishing clara a happy birthday .shit her .she's 16 alreadyy .haha .nothing much happened today .SEL lesson was about relationships & intimacy & marriage .mrs rameshh says alot of stuffs about them tat affects me .haiix .wad de hell .these few days ii have been day-dreaming .wasn't aware tt mahmudah was talking to me .day-dream on de way to school .day-dream on de way back home .ii hope ii don't get hit by a truck just because ii day-dream .i dont know why .i feel this vague dissatisfaction .a sense of being so incomplete .i feel tat im turning into this character from my literature text whose life is "dull & mundane" .that was de start of de story .but in the end he was a happy & complete man of course .i hope my ending will be the same .find it hard to study .i dont know why either .been playing online pool like a jackass who doesnt care about O levels .i do care, though .three of my friends asked me out tmr but ii told them i dont want to .hey, ii dont know why either .enough about me .let's talk about ...................... marriage .haha .mrs ramesh told us we have to learn about marriage so tat we can be prepared .she compares marriage to a deep pool or whatsoever .but whu cares .she asked the whole class "why do ppl get married?" .some said love .others said breakthrough from parents . [ oh, it was me ]so we asked her back because obviously she was married .& she said the sweetest thingg a married women can say ;"firstly, love & secondly, it's about accepting each other's weaknesses" .how sweet is tat .of course some of the guys said "sex" . [ screw them ]den on one of the pages of my CME book, we are required to write a marriage vows .argh .stoopid vows ."I will (blablablabla) in health or in sickness (blablablabla) rich or poor ."these vows are the reasons why we girls despise sweet nothings . [ seriously ]do you think tat when a guy says he loves u, he actually means it ?n when he says u are someone tat is so precious to him, he actually means it ?he does... not . [ no offence to anyone though; ii speak my mind ]they knew it was any girl's weakness to believe all those sweet nothings .well, we girls sure are dumb .what makes us more dumb is tat we accept their apology .
`i am me, not someone else
